Shit I need to go to bed.
It is hilarious to me how intrinsically bad I am at picking up on signals from people. I, for the most part, keep to myself on a consistent basis, so my interactions with other humans, while genuine, are typically short-lived.
Finding things out about situations where I wanted to not be trapped in my own head usually end in me feeling like shit, knowing how something could have happened if I would have just acted differently.
But for some reason, finding out about this one particular instance just makes me smile even though I am internally seething with anger towards my own stupidity. But I smile because I know there will, at some point, be another opportunity where I won’t make the same mistake.
thirty-one black coffins - 2014
i’m too excited about this project to wait, i’m going to be creating one of these every day for the month of october. i will also be selling them on my etsy store, but it’s a first come-first serve basis. placing your order guarantees you a coffin, and i will email you on where you’re at in the pre-order list and when you can expect your coffin to arrive. each one is unique, original, and hand-painted.
go place your order here, and once october begins, i’ll start getting these ready for everyone. thank you so much, stay creepy.
I have three suits and only one fits me the way I want.
So really, I only have one suit, and that is nowhere near enough.
I wish I was filming my brother right now because he is ranting about how he has to go to school on the weekends/holidays to practice with the band that performs during the musicals and it’s easily the funniest he’s ever been.
Three years ago, I opened up my Etsy store, and I have received so much support and love from so many people. Whether it be from friends, family, or strangers, every order I have ever received would always make me feel like I have created something of value. I want to thank everyone who has been there through my evolution as an artist, and as a human.
For the next week, I will be running a 30% off sale on orders of $20 or more. Use the coupon code ANNIVERSARY30 at checkout to get the discount.
Again, thank you so much, you all have helped me in so many ways, and no words will ever properly express that.
matthewkocanda /// mmxiv
I like to think that I’m generally very emotionally stable. I have taught myself how to rationalize almost everything and compartmentalize my feelings so that I can prevent myself from being sad all the time like I used to be.
That being said, it’s very strange to me how something that I initially felt complacent towards can, shortly after, make me feel sad. It’ll pass, it always does, but sometimes you realize that you’ll always feel something, no matter how much time passes or how badly you just want it to fade away.